You give me fever

I thought that I made it but damn those bugs are hard to dodge. Vertical positioning since saturday. I'll update when I feel better!

So tired

Well, the honey water thing has been going pretty well all week. But I think I've hit a plateau or something, the weight just wont go down! I've been moving a lot, walking for at least 30 minutes and my work means some heavy lifting so it's not like I havn't been excercising. To night I had a "fuck it all"- dinner and made myself a grilled cheese. It's about 500 cals but that's all I've had all day. I think that's my biggest problem. When things isn't moving fast enough, I give up way to easy. I don't know what to do really. I think I need something that I can bring with me everyday that I can spread evenly to my meals. But I don't have the time or energy to cook at night for me to bring it. Maybe I just should boil some eggs so that they're ready to go all the time. I don't really like eggs but it seems like the easiest thing to do! I'll definitely hate eggs after two days but maybe it's worth it. Or maybe I should jump on one of those fixed cals/day type of diet again. But it's too hard for me to plan my meals at the moment and I don't want to eat sandwishes for lunch but that's the only thing I can think of that is cheap and as easy to bring as eggs.

Any ideas?

Fridens liljor!

Day seventeen: Have you ever been called fat or skinny?
I was called skinny when I was at my lowest weight about one year ago. Loved it!

Day eighteen: Do you have to eat any meals with your family? Are they for or against your diet?
I do sometimes, maybe once/month. Since I'm not really on any diet at the moment they have nothing to be against =)

So much to do

I've been taking on too much work this week! I have no clue on how to get everything done on time. Hopefully I'll do ok! Good thing about it is that I'm in the front desk all week with no access to food! The honey water thing has been going really well! I've had small dinners, around 400 - 500 cals, but nothing else. The honey is really soothing and keeps me from getting hungry. I'll try to reduce the food and maybe making a fast out of it. We'll see how it goes. I don't want to set my goals to high because it seems I have so much easier to fail when I do! I think I'll weigh myself tomorrow morning to get a clearer picture on how it goes.

I've had a brisk 30 minutes walk today as my work out! I'll do that tomorrow too as I have a 30 minute long break at work. Better than eating!

Day sixteen: Have you ever missed a work out just because you just couldn't be bothered?
Too many times to count!

Nopes, didn't work

Well, the only positive thing that came out of this "diet" I tried is that I'm now 100 % sure that I am not to keep food at home. I will eat it all. At once! I've been feeling so bad these couple of days. I did post after one big slip up where I actually boiled chicken in butter. But it was so poorly written even I couldn't make out what it said! 


I havn't dared to weigh myself yet. I'll maybe give it a couple of days. I'm thinking of just taking it easy on myself at the moment since I have so easy to binge at the moment. 

I did buy some honey though. I'm thinking of replacing as many meals as possible with honey water for a couple of days. Today I had a sandwich at work, but other than that I've only had the water. It's good for when I'm really longing for something sweet. We'll see how it works. I need to find something better to do soon though. I think that the only food that will get in to my freezer at the moment should be greens that I can wok or something. Nothing else! No butter, no pasta, nothing that I can cook huge amounts of. 


Here's to catch up on the 60 days challenge. I havn't had that much cheese. I had it today on my sandwich, but I'll try to stop that too.

Day twelve: What are your friend’s eating habits like?

I don't know really. 

Day thirteen: Is your diet ever negatively influenced by your friends? Do they pressure/tempt you to eat unhealthy food?

Yes, all the time! I have to be stricter!

Day fourteen: Do you ever allow yourself a “rest day” from exercise or a “cheat day” from your diet?

Haha all the time, that's my biggest issue!

Week three!
Weekly challenge: Add an extra 30 minutes to each work out this week, or if you weren’t going to work out at all one day, work out for 30 minutes!

Day fifteen: What is your favourite kind of exercise?

Zumba and any kind of dance. But it's hard to get into my schedule. I guess I'll have to start those rubber bands I bought 1 million years ago! Haha

What kind of sorcery is this?!

I think some one is feeding me fat through a tube when I sleep. Or that the diet I'm trying now is just bullshit! Well, I was aware of that it was a lot of food, but pretty spread out atleast. But in two days I've gained 2 kg! WTF?! And it's not that time of the month yet so it can't be because of that. You guys who have seen the diet plan, what do you think? Is it really that bad that it would make me gain that fast?!

Biggest issue right now though is that I've already bought all the food and I don't want to waste it because of the cost. I think that I might just half the portions and eat if for a couple of more days. Hopefully that will work.

O well, back to my studies *sigh*

Question 11: What are your family's eating habits like?

There are reasonably healthy I think. But my mum, as I've told you, uses this crazy amount of butter when cooking.

So much food!

Hello!

So, day two of the ODM diet is done, and I am so full! Still after 2,5 hrs! I almost felt as if I was force feeding myself at dinner.

Yesterday was so much better! I had a lovely lunch of two eggs and a tomato. I mixed it together to make it more of a sallad and added some spices.  Yum! And for dinner I had half of the boiled meat I made with some green sallad. Lovely as well, a bit too salty though.

But today! Had toast with nothing and a cup of coffee for breakfast. Then I had the same thing I had for dinner last night as lunch. So far so good. But dinner! 5 oz of ham and a yogurt (0% fat). My tummy hurts now!

Sorry for the short post, have no energy and I just want to go to bed!

Fridens liljor!

Question 10: Do you eat breakfast?
I do now! Usually I don't but I think I will try to make it a habit! Apparently it's good for you! Haha

Ruined plans

Stupid snow! It has been gone and getter warmer the last week so I figured I would go out for a morning walk this morning before breakfast. I even set my alarm at 7 o'clock.. I NEVER get up that early normally. But when I saw the snow falling I just put my head back under the covers and slept for another two hours. So here I am waiting for my coffee to cool down. Maybe I'll get some school work done!

Question 9: What is your favorite food? Healthy or unhealthy?

I think you all already know; CHEESE!

Here we go!

Looking forward to starting the ODM diet tomorrow. All the groceries are bought and right now I have 2 portions of the meat boiling at the stove. I bought some really cheap chuck cut so some of it was more suitable for to be boiled. Only added water, some onions and a lot of spices. I think it'll be fine! Also, 400 SEK for one week of breakfast, lunch and dinner isn't much at all! That's great since I'm a student!

I went to the blood central today because I wanted to finally sign up to be a blood donor, and everything went great until I was to roll up my sleeve for the test and the nurse noticed my scars. I don't know if I put it on the blog, but a couple of weeks ago I kind of relapsed for the first time in two years. I just went to a very dark place. It was pretty scary because since then I havn't had any of those tendencies and not before hand either. So, she told me that because of that little slip up I can't be a donor for at least two years! Sure, I get the whole thing that if I cut I might contaminate the blood, but two years?! It was just to make sure that it wasn't a recurring thing. No wonder that we have a shortage on blood in this country if they're going to be like that!
Only good thing about the visit was that they wanted to weigh me just to see that I hadn't lied on my health application. She also told me that they probably would everytime I got there to give blood. Just to be sure. That  made me feel a little better about it :)

Anywho, I guess I'll have to put my Florence Nightingale ambitions to the side for now.

Almost forgot to post the 60 days challenge thing!

Question 7: Do your friends and family know that you are trying to lose weight?

I think that most of them are aware of that I like to try out different diets. But I don't think that they know it's because of the weight but more from a health perspective.

Question 8: Name five things you like about your body and the one body part you would like to change the most.

Ok, here goes. 1. My eyes 2. My wrists, they're tiny! =D 3. My boobs, small and perky 4. My mouth 5. Darn, it's getting hard now. Hmm.. I'd say the shape of my nails!

The one thing I'd like to change the most are my thighs, and with that my bum. I feel like it's kind of a package deal. Damn you, womanly shapes!

For week two of this challenge I am also supposed to stick with the non cheese eating thing. I can keep that unless for friday when I'm supposed to eat gruyere cheese for lunch. I think that's what won me over! I just looves my cheese.

The new challenge is to get organized, thankfully, the new diet is all set in stone. I love that! We'll see how it goes when it's done! Haha

Good mood

Hello all!


I hope that your weekends are good. Mine is! But I guess I will start this tale from the beginning. Or from Thursday that is since I havn't written since. Bad me!


So on thursday I kind of forgot to eat, so I decided to stick with it for the whole day and it worked. I was working during the day, then I had a date in the evening. It was really nice, it was with this guy that I dated a few times this spring and now he contacted me again. I don't know why we stopped seeing eachother, I guess that life got in the way! So I did have some calorie intake due to drinking some wine, but I still think that I did well.


On friday I got payed, and I just couldn't resist running by Burger King on my way to work and had a small burger. I've been craving meat the last couple of days like crazy. Don't know why! So that was like 300 cals. i also had a coke and a cookie during the night at work, so that day I had about 800 cals I guess. Pretty high, but I've decided not to beat myself up for these little slips.


Today I made sure to really cure my beef craving by making a steak for dinner. Only the steak, nothing else so that was about 450 cals. And I also had a small sandwich at work so that rounds up to about 700 cals. Still ok, I mean, it's the weekend! Right? =)


I've found this 7 days diet (that could easily be prolonged) called the One God Meal Diet. I don't know why it's called that, because you actually have 3 meals/day. This is how it works:

Diet Menu for Day 1 of the One Good Meal Diet

Breakfast:

Coffee

Lunch:

2 eggs + 1 tomato

Dinner:

7 Ounces of RED meat + a green salad.

 

Diet Menu for Day 2 of the One Good Meal Diet

Breakfast:

Coffee + toast OR cracker

Lunch:

7 Ounces of RED meat + green salad

Dinner:

5 1/4 Ounces of ham + 1 cup of yogurt

 

Diet Menu for Day 3 of the One Good Meal Diet

Breakfast:

Coffee + toast OR cracker

Lunch:

Green salad + 1 tomato + 1 mandarin orange OR regular orange

Dinner:

3.5 Ounces of ham + fruit salad + 2 eggs

 

Diet Menu for Day 4 of the One Good Meal Diet

Breakfast:

Coffee + toast OR cracker

Lunch:

5 1/4 Ounces of Gruyere cheese + 1 egg + 1 carrot

Dinner:

Fruit salad + 1 Yogurt

 

Diet Menu for Day 5 of the One Good Meal Diet

Breakfast:

5 1/4 Ounces of ham + 1 cup of carrots

Lunch:

7 Ounces of broiled fish + 1 tomato

Dinner:

8 3/4 Ounces of RED meat

 

Diet Menu for Day 6 of the One Good Meal Diet

Breakfast:

Coffee + toast OR cracker

Lunch:

1/4 Baked Chicken + 1 citrus fruit

Dinner:

2 Eggs + 1 cup raw carrot

 

Diet Menu for Day 7 of the One Good Meal Diet

Breakfast:

Coffee + toast OR cracker

Lunch:

7 Ounces of RED meat + 1 citrus fruit

Dinner:

Anything you like up to 500 calories

I think that I will start it when I get the rest of my salary so that I can buy the whole week's groceries at once.

Anywho, here's the questions for the 60 days challenge.

Day four: Do you work out?

No, I'm really bad at that. I happens that I do some light working out at home, but I don't have a routine. Luckely I have a pretty active job now, so I move around alot and move heavy objects :)

Day 5: Is there any specific event that you would like to lose weight for?

Hmm... Beach 2012?

Day 6: Have you ever been overweight or underweight?

No, never. Not if you're going by BMI or something like that.

O well, bed time. Another early morning tomorrow! 

Fridens liljor! 

Open reply to Mr Nye

Hi, so this journalist left me a comment, and I've decided to share what I wrote back to him.


"Mr Nye,

Thank you for your comment and shown interest. Unfortunately, I don't think that me reply will be to much help.

I have never stated to be pro-anorexia or supportive of it. Eating disorders are terrible conditions that I wish for no one.

Yes, I do try out regims and diets that are probably unsafe, frowned upon and widely used in the pro-ana communities.

Sure people might find it offending and maybe triggering, but not once have I written anything about being pro-ana.

Good luck with your research.

Best regards,

La fille du Mont Noir"

Just thought that you might be interested. I have to get to work now so I'll write more tonight or tomorrow!

Fridens liljor!