Hi my little birdies!
So, I havn't been updating much, bur right now I'm in a phasing up phase... I guess. I've been thinking a bit of what I've been stuffing in. Not enough, I still do the between meals snacks. Have to get rid of them. I guess I'm going to let it ride in slowly, getting used to having less, less sugar, smaller meals etc.
It's hard. I think I've known for quite some while that I'm a yoyo. I think that just because I've never been "big", that's the reason for my yoyo'ing. I do between 46 kilos (101,2lbs) to 56 kg (123,6lbs) and I think my body's fav weight is 52 (144,4lbs). The 56 kg is kind of a moderated truth. I weighed that much once, a couple of years ago. But the numbers keeps hunting me.
For me, the problem is that when I lose the weight, I feel safe. So I stop restricting a bit, and then some more... and then I'm back to cheese and cream! And then I hate myself again...
So, I've started to think about what I put in my mouth, it'll prolly be another two weeks before I start counting. I have to take it step by step. I have to remember what I did to get down to 46 the last time, and then try to stick to it. Wish me luck, I will prolly post more the more controll I get!